This is gonna sound kinda odd to some people, but I’m sick and fucking tired of being single! Especially around this time of the year! It seems like everywhere I go, I’m surrounded by couples and makes me want to pull out the little bit of hair that I have! And the bad part is that there is somebody that I would give anything in this world to be with, but there seems to be way too many roadblocks along that road. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not planning on giving up on her (And she should know who she is. Matter of fact, I’m on the phone with her right now.) I’m gonna have to look at the situation in a realistic light. There is an incredible amount of distance between us and even if we lived right next door to each other, she has a man! Now I’m cocky son of a something or other, but I’m a little apprehensive about pursuing a woman that is in a relationship, no matter how I feel about her or if I know in my heart of hearts that we are meant to be together. So the best that I can do right now is make sure that I make my feelings and intentions well known to her and hope that she sees the light at the end of the tunnel. But then again, I’ve never really been one to be passive when it comes to chasing what I want in life. But then again, I’m kinda scared to break up her relationship because karma is one mean-spirited bitch! The same way that she would leave her man to be with me, she could leave me to be with somebody else.

I know this post seems like just one long ass run-on sentence, but I’m just speaking from my heart and this is how it sounds in my head. So I’ll continue…

Now this certain special young lady isn’t the only potential love interest on the horizon. She just happens to be head and shoulders above the rest. Maybe I’m over-thinking the situation and if we are meant to be together then it will happen. But there is nothing wrong with giving fate a little kick in the pants, is there? Or maybe I should keep my feelings to myself and move on. But that sounds like a punk move. How could I ever achieve true happiness if I denied myself my heart’s biggest want? I think I don’t give other women a fair shake at being in my life because I’m either holding out for the one I want, or I unfairly compare them to her. And I admit that I have her on a pedestal so high she might get a nose bleed. I don’t know. I’m just confused right now and kinda out of words.