I was inspired to write this by my friend Chandra, who shared some very private things about herself. So in the spirit of a New Year, here’s goes my turn at full disclosure…

1. I’m an only child and am JEALOUS of people who have siblings.

2. I’m probably the shyest person you know. I’ve been like that for years, but I’m trying to work on it.

3. I’m originally from Kansas City, MO but consider Atlanta, GA my hometown. It’s a long story as to why…I might tell it one day.

4. I’m secretly insecure about my looks, which is why I love to go shopping. I always figured I could make up for not being the most attractive man if I was the best dressed.

5. I’m smarter than most people think I am. I have an IQ of 163 but got bad grades in high school because I was bored to death. I even taught one of my classes for a month. And since that day, I always wanted to be a teacher…I just don’t wanna go back to school.

6. I’ve been in love only twice, and have only had 4 serious romantic relationships in 28 years of living.

7. I believe nothing is more important than family, but I avoid the vast majority of the members of my family like they have the plague. That’s another one of those long stories that I’ll save for another day.

8. I don’t have a lot of friends. And the friends I do have, I consider to be family. In all honesty, I might love them more than I love my real family.

9. Speaking of friends, most of my firends are female. I’m not too sure why, though. But it has led to my sexuality being questioned on numerous occasions.

10. I lost my best friend in this world on September 7, 2007. Since that day, life ain’t been the same.

11. I love to write and have been writing since 1995! I actually have cried because I had writer’s block. I can honestly count on my hand the number of people that knew that!

12. I was originally left-handed, but my mother made me learn how to write with my right hand. I never asked why, but I think that is by far the dumbest thing I have ever heard of. But because of that, I’m partially ambidextrous. It’s wierd.

13. I’m an alcoholic. I’m not a full-out, fall down drunk or anything like that, but I’ve struggled with alcoholism since I was 13. That’s why you’ll never see me have more than 3 drinks if I’m out somewhere, unless something is seriously bothering me. In that case, you might wanna drag me away from the bar.

14. I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago. I don’t have to take medication for it, thank God, but I have to watch my moods. I can’t get too high or let myself get too low.

15. I’m afraid of growing up, which keeps me from being able to commit to anything serious. But at the same time, I’m afraid of not progressing in my life.

16. I love hard and fast. I can tell within 3 dates what kind of feelings I’ll have for a person. And once I fall for a person, my feelings don’t go away easily. I still have a crush on somebody that I had a crush on in high school.

17. My nickname is Moses, but you would be surprised by who started calling me that. It came from the pastor of a church that I attended when I lived in Denver, CO. He said he could sense that I had the spirit of a great leader. I guess. I’m still waiting to see it.

18. I’m seriously claustrophobic! I can’t even ride in small cars without flipping out!

19. I really want kids and have felt that way for about 6 or 7 years, but I’m scared to death at the same time that I won’t be a good father. That fear has kept me from fully committing myself to a relationship so far.

20. I’m really lazy, unless I’m working towards something that directly benefits me. That’s the main reason why I want to open my own business. I don’t want to work for anybody else, I’d rather be my own asshole of a boss. There are other reasons, too. Ask and I might tell.

That’s all I want to share now. Maybe, just maybe I’ll do this again. But in the meantime, if you have any questions, just ask. I don’t bite. Assalamu Alaikam