Regret

I was sitting on the couch watching TV when there was an unexpected knock at the door. I paused the movie I was watching and made my way to the front door. “I wonder who it could be,” I said to myself as I bent down to look out the peephole. To my surprise, it was Elise, my ex-roommate’s girlfriend.

“Hey Jonah, I’m sorry to stop by like this.”

I stepped back from the door and paused for a moment. For the life of me, I couldn’t think of a reason for her to be outside my house. We hadn’t been particularly close when Matt and I lived together, kind of just existing on the edges of each other’s lives through him. But I decided to open the door anyway.

“Come on in. You want something to drink?” I heard her close the door behind herself then, softly reply, “No thank you.” I went back into the living room and slumped back into my spot on the couch. She shortly followed and sat down right beside me.

“We missed you at the funeral.” My heart sank to my feet as I took a good look at her. She was dressed in a modest black dress with her hair pulled back into a ponytail. Matt’s funeral was today and I had completely forgotten about it. Even though it had been a few months since he moved out, the two of us remained close. I stumbled over the words of my apology before she finally told me it was okay.

“I figured you probably weren’t gonna come, but I thought I’d stop by and check on you anyway.” She briefly gave me a run down of what happened at the funeral. She said the entire scene felt a bit suffocating – too many people, too many condolences that felt rehearsed, too much silence that would’ve drove Matt insane.

When she was done, we sat in awkward silence for what seemed like forever as we each tried to decide how to navigate the uneasy tension that had fallen on the room like a wet blanket. Eventually, I convinced myself to go into the kitchen and fix myself a drink. To my surprise, she was right on my heels.

“Great minds think alike, huh?” I nervously joked as I poured some vodka into a glass. We both let out a small chuckle that seemed to let some of the air out of the room. We went back into the living room and talked for a while. As she talked, I could tell that it was weighing on her. With the deft precision of a blunt instrument, I tried to change the subject to something a little less emotionally draining. Instantly, she was mass of sobbing humanity in my arms. I squeezed her tightly and did my best to console her through what was obvious an inconsolable moment.

“I’m so sorry to come over here and dump on you like this, but I didn’t know where else to go.” The stream of tears running down her cheeks was reminiscent of the Mississippi River. I didn’t say anything, I just hugged her tighter as my eyes began to spring a leak.

After what felt like eons, we released our hold on each other. But something else seemed to be drawing us closer to one another. I wildly shook my head, as if trying to free myself from a hypnotic trance. “Another drink?” She forced a smile for my sake and eagerly nodded as she handed me her glass. I decided to grab the bottle and return to the living room.

We drank in silence at first. Then came the stories – small fragmented pieces of Matt that we were clinging on to. We laughed, but it was the kind of laughter that cracked at the edges. But the third drink, Elise had stopped laughing. By the fourth, she looked at me with something unreadable in her expression and said, “I don’t want to go home.” And I knew what she meant, even if neither of us said it out loud.

We got up from our seats on the couch and slowly made our way towards my bedroom. Not because we were drunk, but because of the unspoken hesitation that I felt between us. Maybe it was a warning. Maybe it was guilt. Maybe it was too much vodka playing tricks on me.

When we reached the door to my bedroom, it was like something snapped. Elise reached out for me, fingers clenching at the waistband of my sweatpants, pulling me into a kiss that was all teeth and desperation. It wasn’t soft nor sweet. It felt like her grief had turned into something tangible – something she could sink into, drown in. I quickly lifted her up, my hands gripping her thighs as I kissed her harder than she had kissed me, like I was trying to erase the taste of vodka and sorrow from both of our mouths. She hooked her legs around my waist, pulling me closer to her. We fell back on the bed while Elise’s fingers fumbled with my drawstring, tugging at it impatiently before dragging her nails across my back. It hurt, but maybe that was the point.

In an instant, our clothes were a mess on the floor, and the only sounds between us were sharp breaths and the rustle of bedsheets. I unsteadily traced my lips down her neck, over her collarbone, leaving a trail of gentle kisses that would have almost been reverent if it weren’t for the vice grip I hap on her hips. Elise pulled me closer, her body arching into mine as if she needed more of something, anything. Every touch, every kiss, every movement between us felt like a plea – don’t stop, don’t think, don’t feel anything but this.

We moved together with the kind of desperation that had nothing to do with love and everything to do with forgetting. Everything about it was rough, feverish, our bodies colliding with an urgency that left no room for hesitation. Hands roamed freely, nails left marks, teeth grazed over skin – small, fleeting reminders that we were still alive, that we could still feel something, anything, even if it was only for the night.

Afterward, we laid together, our bodies slick with sweat, the air think with something neither of us wanted to name, let alone acknowledge. Elise laid on her back and traced a path across my chest while absently staring at the ceiling overhead. I laid beside her, my arm draped above my head and stared blankly at the TV mounted on the wall in front of me. The room smelled like a mixture of vodka, sex, and sweat. But the air between us had shifted, thickening with the weight of what we had just done. I could still feel the ghost of her skin on mine, taste her lips on mine, but the comfort our actions had given us both was already fading. There was nothing left now but the cold, creeping realization that it wasn’t going to make either of us feel any better.

“This was a mistake,” she whispered. I let out deep sigh, relieved that she said what was bouncing around in my vodka soaked mind. “Yeah.” But neither of us moved. The silence stretched out between us. But unlike before, there was a weight to it, much heavier than before, almost to the point of suffocating. Eventually, we lost our individual battles with sleep.

By morning, the feeling of regret was unbearable. It almost felt like Matt was standing in the corner, casting judgement on us. I woke up first, but pretended to be sleep so I wouldn’t disturb her. When she woke up, her hand immediately covered her face, I can only imagine that she was replaying the previous night’s events over in her head. She slipped out from under the covers in what I suppose was an attempt to not disturb me. Then she quickly got dressed and bolted for the door, never looking back to see that I was watching her the whole time. Maybe I should’ve tried to stop her, or at least said something. But what exactly? The only reason I didn’t do the same thing was because we were at my house. Once I heard my front door close, I quickly got in the shower and tried to scrub away the guilt and regret.

And just like that, we became strangers again.

The Syndicate: “Peaches”

Outside, the neon lights flickered above the entrance to Sugar & Spice, casting a pulsing glow onto the rain-slicked pavement. Inside, the scent of sweat, body spray, and cheap whiskey lingered in the air, blending into the haze of pulsating music and murmured conversations. Deeper in the bowels of the gentlemen’s club, Peaches rummaged through her locker. She knew she had put her favorite g-string in her bag the night before but now it was nowhere to be found. In her two years of working for The Syndicate since her sorority sister, Samantha, recruited her out of Howard University, this had been her least favorite assignment. She’d spent the majority of her life studying dance, including stints at Baltimore School for the Arts and Julliard. But despite all that experience and training, Judith Stone thought it best to stick her in this measly strip club in the middle of Mississippi. “Remember the job, it’s the only thing that matters,” she could hear Sam telling her over and over.

With a heavy sigh, she returned to searching her belongings for the lost g-string. But just as she was ready to give up, she noticed another girl, D’Nasty, wearing it. Every fiber of her being wanted to snatch D’Nasty, who’s really name was Dianne, by the 26 inch platinum blonde ponytail hanging from the top of her head and drag her all around the dressing room. “Even if I weren’t a trained assassin, it wouldn’t be a fair fight,” she told herself. Instead she shot daggers from her eyes as the costume thief bopped around the room. After what could’ve been an eternity, D’Nasty finally looked in Peaches’ direction. “Hey girl, I hope you don’t mind me borrowing this,” she said as she popped the g-string on her hip. “Nah girl, it’s all yours,” Peaches replied. With a grin on her face, D’Nasty ran over and embraced Peaches in a giant bear hug. Just as she could feel the anger build up inside her, Peaches heard the DJ call her name over the intercom.

Peaches adjusted the strap on her barely-there black lace corset and stepped onto the stage, her every movement calculated. As she wrapped her long legs around the pole, arching her back with practiced ease and the grace befitting a classically trained ballerina, she scanned the crowd. Men sat in tattered leather chairs, their gazes locked on her, but she wasn’t looking for them. She was making sure she had eyes on her target. She had spent the better part of the last 6 months infiltrating Sugar & Spice, earning the trust of the dancers, the bouncers, even the club’s sleepy owner. She had mapped out every escape route, memorized every camera angle.

After her set on stage, Peaches returned to the dressing rom to take a quick shower. As she was getting dressed , she heard her phone vibrate in her locker. She retrieved the iPhone out of her bag and checked the notifications. She had received a text message from her employer, Judith Stone. She quickly opened the message and was greeted with the picture of her target. It was none other than D’Nasty herself. “I’d almost be willing to do this one for free,” she said to herself as she looked at the picture. Just then, she received a notification stating she had just received an email. She opened the email and read the instructions contained in it. She wasn’t to kill Dianne, as she was not the target. The target was her father: the leader of a radical militia group in the area that had plans to storm the state capital building in an attempt to start a revolution.

Just then, a few of the other girls entered the dressing room. Peaches, who was born Prudence Miller, quickly stashed her phone back in her locker and finished getting dressed. “A few of us are going to Waffle House after we get off tonight, wanna come?” Prudence smiled and nodded her head as she closed her locker and headed for the door to her car. She quickly threw her bag into the backseat of the car, then went to the trunk to grab her gear. She fished her Glock 26 and holster out of her tactical bag, then looked up to see if anyone was watching her. Once she was sure the coast was clear, she removed her Nike track jacket and slipped the holster onto her shoulders. She put the jacket back on as she continued to scan her gear. Since her assignment was to kidnap Dianne, she needed a non-lethal way to take Dianne down. That’s when she noticed the glass vial full of a milky white substance. Prudence grabbed the vial and slid it into her jacket pocket.

A half an hour later, the ladies from Sugar & Spice had turned the local Waffle House into a PG-13 striptease show. As the dancers twerked and bounced around the restaurant, Prudence devised a plan to get Dianne alone. She quietly sat back and watched her target stumble around the building in a pair of worn out Reebok Classics. She’s so drunk, I won’t even have to drug her. She slyly crept up behind Dianne just as she was about to take a tumble. “Come on girl, let me take you home.” Dianne didn’t say anything, she just nodded softly as she seemed to drift in and out of consciousness.

Prudence quickly got Dianne into the passenger seat of her car then drove them away from the restaurant. The small town’s street lights blurred past as she navigated towards an are that they wouldn’t attract attention. Dianne attempted to sit up in her seat and meekly asked where they were going. “Somewhere quiet,” Prudence responded and refocused on the road ahead.

As soon as they reached the abandoned warehouse on the outskirts of town, Prudence turned off the engine. Before Dianne could react, Prudence moved, fast and precise, stabbing a syringe filled with the milky white substance into her arm. Dianne attempted to struggle against the drug coursing through her veins but she went limp within seconds. Prudence exhaled sharply as she hoisted Dianne’s unconscious body over her shoulder. She carried her inside and secured her to a chair with zip ties.

About an hour later, Dianne began to stir, blinking against the dim light overhead. Her breathing hitched when she realized she was bound.

“What the hell?!”

“Good morning, sunshine,” Prudence quipped, arms crossed. Dianne’s eyes darkened. “Peaches, what kind of sick fucking game is this?!”

“First off, I fucking hate that name,” Prudence growled as she leaned in, “And I’m not too fond of you either.” A scowl spread across Diann’s face. “Is this about me wearing your g-strings?”

Prudence rolled her eyes. “I know who you are. And better yet, I know who your daddy is.”

Dianne’s lips parted, but she stopped just short of speaking. She took a moment to think. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

Prudence let out a small chuckle. “Save it, sweetheart. I did my homework. Victor Montague, the militia leader. Word is he has plans to overthrow the government of this… charming state of yours.” Dianne flinched as if she was physically assaulted by hearing of her father’s plans.

“You see, the problem is, I need your father,” Prudence continued, “And you? You’re my leverage.” Dianne shot daggers at her from her eyes. “You think he’ll come for me? He won’t. I haven’t seen him in years. Shit, I probably hate him more than you do.”

Prudence tilted her head to the side and fished a small knife out of the pocket of her jacket. She quickly flipped the blade out. “Maybe not willingly. But if I send the right message, he won’t have a choice.”

Hours passed and neither woman said anything to the other, their jaws locked close in defiance. And while Prudence admired the resolve of her prisoner, she knew she was running out of time. “You don’t get it,” Dianne finally blurted out, “I ran away for a reason. If you take me back, he’ll kill me.” Prudence furrowed her brow at the idea of a father wanting to kill his own daughter. Memories of her relationship with her own father danced around in her head.

“Why? Why would he want to kill you?”

Dianne swallowed hard and leaned her head back on the chair. “Because I stole something from him.”

Prudence was intrigued. She took a step forward as her eyes narrowed. “What?”

“A ledger. He called it his manifesto. It has the dates and locations for different attacks he’s planning. Names of his members. If it got into the wrong hands, a lot of powerful people could go down.”

Prudence put the knife away and wringed her hands. Her heartbeat quickened as a sly smile stretched out across her face. “So where is it?”

“You let me go and I’ll tell ya.”

Prudence let out a small sigh. This wasn’t how she planned things going, but she knew when to improvise. And she knew bringing in that ledger would be a game-changer for her. “Fine. But if you double-cross me, I will make you regret it.”

“Trust me, I believe you.”

Prudence untied Dianne and they drove to greasy roadside motel outside of town. Dianne led Prudence to a battered suitcase hidden in the A/C vent in one of the rooms. She pried it open, revealing a leather-bound notebook filled with handwritten notes. Prudence feverishly flipped through it, scanning the pages. She saw names of state and federal politicians, judges, law enforcement officers, and even the newly elected President of the United States. This was it, the evidence that could dismantle the entire network.

“Now what?” Dianne asked.

“Now I make a call,” Prudence responded as she pulled her phone from her pocket. But before she could finish dialing the number, she heard the clash of metal against metal. She looked up and Dianne was holding a small pistol.

“Seriously?!”

Dianne’s hands were shaking slightly, a mixture of the drug and her nerves left her grip a bit unsteady. “You were never going to let me go, were you?”

“I told you, I’m not after you and I don’t kill innocent people.”

“Tell that to the girl you drugged and tied to a chair.” Dianne readjusted her grip on the gun.

Prudence couldn’t help but snicker. “You got a point.”

Silence fell over the room for what felt like an eternity before Dianne sighed and lowered the gun. “I don’t trust you,” she sneered.

“Good, because I don’t trust you either.” The two women stared at each other, both unwillingly participants in an unexpected game of chicken. “Let’s go take down dear ol’ daddy,” Prudence said as she slipped the ledger into her jacket. Dianne hesitated for a brief moment then nodded. Together, they walked out of the fleabag motel room and into the night, uncertain allies bound by a common enemy.

The ride to Victor Montague’s compound was tense. Dianne sat up, stiff as a board, in the passenger seat, arms folded tightly across her petite frame, her jaw clinched. Prudence could tell that she was still contemplating betrayal, so she kept one hand on the steering wheel and the other inside her jacket, wrapped around the handle of her Glock 26.

“You realize we probably both gonna die tonight, right?” Dianne muttered halfway under her breath.

“What’s life without a little risk, huh? You only live once.” Dianne fired off a death stare. “You got jokes. My daddy is a paranoid psychopath. If he even thinks that something ain’t right, he’ll kill you where you stand.”

“I guess its a good thing I have a plan.” Dianne scoffed. “Care to share?”

Prudence righted her grip on the steering wheel. “You’re his daughter, his own flesh and blood. He might wanna kill you, but he’s gonna want to hear you out first. You go inside and play the prodigal daughter, and I’ll make sure we both walk out.”

Dianne let out a hearty laugh. “Girl, you don’t know shit about my old man.”

“Please enlighten me then.” Dianne hesitated for a moment, then let out a heavy sigh. “My daddy don’t care ‘bout family, he only cares about power. He only cared about me until I stopped being his obedient little girl. When I ran away from home, he didn’t send men to bring me back. He sent them to kill me because I took that book.” Prudence quietly drove the car, letting the information she just received sink in. “If that’s true, why are you helping me? Why not just make a run for it?”

Dianne’s expression turned to stone. “Because I wanna see that fucker dead just as bad as you do.” Prudence looked at her out of the corner of her eye. “Okay. But if you double-cross me, I’ll put a bullet in your head my damn self.” Dianne’s expression lightened as she stared out the window at the country speeding by. “Take a number, honey.”

Victor Montague’s compound was nestled deep in the Mississippi countryside, an isolated fortress surrounded by acres of thick forest. The kind of place where a person could disappear and nobody would ever think to come look for you. Prudence parked a few miles away from the main gate. She hopped out the car, opened the trunk and retrieved an assault rifle from its case. Then she grabbed a small backpack and slung the strap over her left shoulder. Dianne stood and watched her in amazement, so Prudence fished the knife out of her pocket and handed it to her. “What am I supposed to do with this?”

“Knives are inconspicuous. You don’t daddy dearest would be concerned if you showed with a gun?” Dianne shrugged. “I guess you got a point.” Together, they slowly made their way up the winding dirt road towards the compound’s main gate. Once they were in sight of the main gate, Prudence slinked away behind the tree line as Dianne continued on. The guards at the front gate tensed when they saw her walking towards them and instinctively lifted their guns into a ready position. “Tell my father I came to talk.” The guards exchanged wary glances before one of them grabbed the radio from his hip. After a few moments, a loud buzzer sounded and the heavy metal gate began to open. Dianne cautiously approached as the guards side stepped out of her way. She was escorted inside the main house and to a large sitting area, walking past numerous confederate flags and portraits of Civil War era southern leaders. As she walked past the pictures of the men, she look at each and shuddered.

Meanwhile, Prudence had made her way undetected to the back side of the compound. She quickly scanned the area for any kind of surveillance equipment. There was none to be seen. “Paranoid psychopath my ass. This is easier than sneaking into the dorms at Howard.” She found a gap in the wall and squeezed her way through it.

Dianne sat in the house’s makeshift assembly hall and waited for her father. The air smell of cheap cigars, body order and something sickly sweet that she couldn’t quite make out. Just as she thought she knew what it was, Victor Montague’s appeared in the doorway. He was an older man, what was left of his salt and pepper hair stuck out from underneath a bright red baseball cap with white writing on the front. “Dianne, what the hell brings your scrawny ass back here?!”

“Hey to you too, Daddy.”

Victor pulled a large revolver from the holster on his hip. “What’s to keep me from killing your treacherous ass right where you stand?” Dianne’s whole body tensed up as she felt herself staring down the literal and metaphorical barrel of her impending doom. “If you kill me, you’ll never get your book back.” Victor let out a heavy sigh, returned the gun to its holster, removed the ball cap, and rubbed his head where he once had hair. “Where is it, you conniving you little bitch?”

“It’s somewhere safe, that’s all you need to know.” Victor slowly worked his way back onto his feet and started to approach his daughter. As he did, she discreetly fumbled around in her pockets for the knife that Prudence gave her.

“And what the fuck do you want?” Dianne braced herself for what she anticipated to be her father’s next move. “Well Daddy, I want you gone.” Victor let out a hearty laugh as he took another step towards his daughter. “If that was the case honey, you would’ve come here with the army in tow.” At that exact moment, the power went out.

Gunfire erupted sporadically around the room that Victor and Dianne were in. Without hesitation, he grabbed her by the throat and shoved her against the wall behind her. “WHO THE FUCK DID YOU BRING HERE?!” Dianne struggled to free herself from his vice grip to no avail.

“Nobody Daddy,” she gasped. He tightened his grip around her throat as he pulled his revolver. “Don’t lie to me or I’ll blow that stupid fucking ponytail right off your fucking head!”

Somewhere else in the house, Prudence calmly navigated her way through the darkness with the help of a set of night vision goggles. And with each of Victor’s men that she encountered, she handled with deadly efficiency. After a few moments, the lights came roaring back on. Prudence expertly closed her eyes and pushed the goggles up to her forehead. And that’s when the chaos really broke out. The tactical team that Prudence called in stormed the gate. And while Victor’s men weren’t any slouches, they were no match for an ambush of well-trained soldiers. One by one, they fell in a haze of smoke and gunfire. Victor, however , was on the move. And he had a hostage with him. Prudence spotted him pushing Dianne through a side door and out into the compound’s main yard.

She pursued them out the door and past stacks of crates containing all sorts of supplies and weapons. And while he was quick for a man of his age, he was undoubtedly slowed down by the human shield he had in tow. Prudence finally caught up with them in the garage, where he was trying to shove Dianne into a SUV. “I hate to tell you that you came all this way to die, you black bitch!” Victor turned towards Prudence and raised the revolver. But before he could fire, Dianne stuck the knife in his stomach. Victor gasped, his eyes widened. The look on his face could only be described as utter shock. He instinctively backhanded his daughter and she flew back into the car. He turned his attention back towards Prudence and, before he could move again, she fired 3 shots into his chest. Victor dropped his gun and collapsed to the ground beneath him. Prudence lowered the assault rifle and rushed to the open door of the SUV. “You okay?”

Dianne rubbed her cheek and said, “Yeah, I think so. That summabitch hits like a tank.” She kicked the body of her newly deceased father that laid at her feet.

The tactical team swept through the compound, securing any surviving members of the militia and any pertinent information they came across. Prudence and Dianne stood outside the gate as smoke billowed towards the heavens. “What now?”

Prudence looked over her shoulder at the destroyed gate and then back down the road towards her car. “You’re free.”

“What about you?”

Prudence sighed. “I go back to home and see what my employer has lined up for me next.” Dianne looked her up and down, then said, “Maybe I’ll see you around.”

“God, I hope not.” They both laughed. And with that, they went their separate ways – two survivors in a world of shadows, bound by blood and betrayal.

You and Me Against the World

I know we’ve going through this for a while now

And it seems like we can’t make each other smile now

But I can’t imagine life without you by my side

I’d die for you because for me you’re always down to ride

Everyone says that our love is doomed, we should get out while we can

Last time I checked a relationship consisted of a woman and a man

And if no one else can see that what we have is meant to be

Then it’ll be just you and me against the world

You

You’re breathtaking, my jaws down to the floor

I am so, what’s the word I’m looking for

Not quite love but way more than lust for you

I always catch myself daydreaming of you

You make me smile, that’s why I love spending time with you

And a simple kiss to the forehead is all you gotta do

Smooth cocoa brown skin, damn shawty you a 10

What I’m trying to say is can I be your boyfriend

But…

Why Did I Get Married? (Inspired by the Movie and Real Life)

Here I am

Standing here at the proverbial fork in the road

And all that’s on my mind is

Why did I get married

On one hand, there’s my kids and my wife

The loves of my life

On the other, there’s all the strife

The arguments and fights

In terms of this marriage thing, I haven’t been at it too long

But I swear sometimes it just feels all wrong

Then there are the times when it feels oh so right

Because I love this woman with all of my might

So I’m faced with a dilemma, a decision I must make

At this point of my life, which path should I take

To the left, the single life

Freedom, the ability to go with the motions

To the right is my wife

My family, love and devotion

Is this a trick question, which is the right way

Life as a family man or a return to my playa days

I remember that part of my life with conflicting emotions

Not a care in the world, cool as a breeze on the ocean

And you always could find me up in the club

Because my nights were lonely, I was missing love

And that’s where she came in

The keeper of my heart, the queen of my life

My best friend, my confidant, my beautiful wife

Who am I kidding, my choice has been made

My life is about more than trying to get laid

I’ve laid a foundation on which to build my legacy

That’ll last much longer than fleeting moments of ecstasy

A woman that’s worth some anger has gotta be worth some effort

Right?

Plus, I wouldn’t be able to breathe if I left her

And God blessed her, with the patience to deal with me

So that’s means our union is meant to last for eternity

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I am a sexual warrior

I dance with my sword in one hand

And my heart in the other

You are my Goddess

I kiss your neck, you suck my tongue

I touch your breast as you look into my eyes

You see me, feel me and taste me

I shall protect you, I am your king

We shall create a life together

Into you I go; slowly, softly

For you have given me your most sacred gift

Your love

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In your passion my mind runs clear, I have no fear of our sexuality

I have dreams of bossa nova themes and jazz notes that suit you

Now if I may go on to say that I want to vibe with your sensuality

Touch you there, yeah right there; let your delicate hands guide me

You are Venus to my Saturn, the Nile Valley to my Zanzibar

Will you intertwine and connect with me through your soul

As we plunge deeper into ecstasy

Giving you third eye penetrations that only Osiris and Isis know

I am your Zulu, a warrior spirit from long ago

Dying in you as our love vibrates while Ra moves the morning sun

This is metaphysical, spiritual sex with all the rawness of the world

Connecting with you showed me the way to Heaven

For Heaven is between the thighs of a woman

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Spiritual equalities wrap my brain, the overstanding of third eye bliss

The supernatural powers of our ancestor’s teachings

Truly processing what it means to be a slave

A nigga, a darky, colored, black, an African-American

Seeing my brothers and sisters belittled by society

Makes me wonder of our future existence

Shall we become of love, of true foundations

Will we save the black nation, will we commit to the struggle

To the youth, to the truth

Will you make that sacrifice to love me, us, we

The spark of the universe

Can we let go of the matrix

The pimps and hoes, the hustlers

The bling, the bread, the pussy, the dicks and just represent

I need you to know that our time has come

For we are with righteousness, one with the balance

Numerology, astrology, trignometry

The writings on the walls in Ethiopia and in our hearts

I am man

Hear me, breathe me in, be one with me for our future

From now until eternity

The Tale of… Us

After one date, I’m amazed by how much I’m feeling you

Don’t have enough fingers to count the times I think of you

I try to play it cool, sit back and see where I stand with you

But to unbearable, where’re you are I wanna be there too

And along comes Valentine’s Day

A day long date spent solely in pursuit of your affection

By dinner, I felt like we made a strong connection

And then there was that kiss

A kiss so powerful, it felt like the Earth shook

To get me hooked, our lips pressed together is all it took

Just a few dates in and I don’t want our take to end

I’m going all in, letting you know I wanna be moe than friends

So where do we go from here

It hurts to not have you near

I’m not sure where I went awry

But I think this budding romance deserves another try

The Revolution has Been Synthesized (I Rewrote Gil Scott-Heron. Fight me!)

Wonder why you were able to stay at home brother

Wonder why you were able to plug in, turn on and zone out

Wonder why you were able to lose yourself in the HD graphics

And to fast forward past beer commercials

Because the revolution has been synthesized

The revolution has been synthesized

The revolution was brought to you in part by HP

Over 5 nights with limited commercial interruption

The revolution was captured in pictures of Jesse Jackson

Blowing a bugle and leading the charge for equality

By Al Sharpton and Barack Obama feasting

On the hopes and dreams of Black America

The revolution has been synthesized

The revolution has been scientifically created and lab tested

Our progression was falsified, our development has been arrested

The revolution was produced in a studio in front of a live audience

Edited for content and to run in the allotted time

The revolution has been rated PG-13 to allow the children to see

So they can share the experience via Facebook and Twitter

There will be no really historic changes made

No equality gained or rights won

The marches we witnessed were just lines to see the revolution in 3D

But for those that couldn’t make it, the revolution was made for TV

The revolution has been synthesized