A Letter To My Unborn Child

I know what you’re thinking. “Is this the Love Jones poem from the other day? Finally.” No, it’s not. That’s proving to be a little more difficult than I anticipated, and I’m a bit of perfectionist. So I’m not going to consider it finished until I feel like it’s worthy of being read. Plus, its a love poem and its hard to write about love when I’m single and a little bitter. So I decided to post a poem from my series that’s titled “Letters From the Heart.” I think I’m going to post a few more pieces from this collection later on today. But back to this one. I was afraid to post this at first because I wasn’t sure if I was ready for the potential influx of comments or questions about it. Most people think that everything I write is written through my own perspective. While I do tend to borrow from my own life for most of my inspiration, I consider myself to be a pretty good (at times great) writer and the true mark of a great writer is the ability to tell a story from a point of view that isn’t his/her own. So, here it goes…

Dear Baby Girl or Baby Boy,

I’m writing this to tell you that you’ve filled my life with joy
Before you came along, I really thought I had it all
Was quick to hit the club or blow money in the mall
But now, when I’m in the mall, I see all the things I wanna get you
I love you more than life and I haven’t even met you
I spend my free time with my head on your mommy’s tummy
So now you know that the strange voice you’re hearing is only me
And I don’t care whether you are a boy or a girl
Just know that you’re my favorite person in the world

Love Always,
Your Dad

Aphrodite

I’m still working on the poem from the other night, but I just wanted to share another piece with the world. This is my newest piece. Its very near and dear to my heart, only a few people know why. I don’t plan on sharing those reasons, but I hope you enjoy reading the poem…

From heaven she was cast
My angel, my light
The goddess Aphrodite, sent to Earth to illuminate my path and provide warmth to my spirit
She came to me on a midsummer’s breeze
And delighted me with her beauty
I went to sleep with her essence on my lips and she danced her way through my dreams
When I had awoke, she had taken off with my heart and left my soul wanting more
So here I am, heart in her hands
My body and soul, willing followers of her every whim
I call her my pied piper
But she doesn’t lead me to destruction
Our destination is filled with seduction, eroticism and love
My Cherie amor, you’re not the first woman that I have adored
But I want you to be the last
And when you click the heels of your ruby slippers
I hope you say that there’s no place like me
Our love is your home, in my two arms you find shelter
And we shall ascend to the seventh level of our Father’s house
To live for eternity as man and wife
The goddess Aphrodite and me

Love Jones (Inspired by Life and the Movie)

This still isn’t the poem I started last night, that one is gonna take me a little longer than I orignally thought. But since I brought up the fact that Love Jones is my go-to inspiration, I decided to post this poem. I wrote this a few years ago. At the time, I was going through a rough break up and wasn’t exactly sure how I felt about it or how to deal with my feelings. Like everything else in my life, I knew I wanted to write about it. That always seems to be my release. But, I couldn’t get myself going. That’s when I started flipping through the channels and came across Love Jones. As I sat watched the movie, I noticed parallels between what was on the screen and what was in my heart. And that’s when this poem was conceived. As the story played out on screen, I wrote like a madman. There are aspects of the movie in this poem, as well as what I was going through. Hope you enjoy…

It was a Friday night; me and my boys were chilling in the club
I was just hanging out, having fun, not really looking for love
But then you walked past me
I was awe-struck; your jaw-dropping beauty had me straight stuck
You had me mesmerized by those gypsy eyes
And your slim waist that leads down to those dancer’s thighs
I coyly approached like huge fan does a movie star
Scared to speak like a kid asking mommy for a candy bar
“Excuse me,” I said and you turned ever so sweetly
Then I asked you these questions ever so meekly
“You probably get approached like this on a regular basis, huh?”
“And told how fine you are by countless faces, huh?
“Well, add my name to the list”
“Your level of fine is so high, just looking at you gives me a pain in my eye”
“Maybe we can continue this conversation at a later day and time”
And that’s we began our beautiful courtship

Now some time passes by and we doing what couples do
I’m learning you, you’re learning me, ain’t nothing new
But I can see in your face that something has changed
You tell you have to go out of town for a couple of days
What kind of fool do I look like?
You hop on a train and head back home
Thoughts of a man that’s not me swirl around in your dome
Out of town on business my ass
You went back to home to play around with the trash
Also known as your ex-boyfriend
But I’m stingy
I can’t stand that you want him instead of me
It’s driving me crazy
But when it comes to this love game, I ain’t lazy
Anything you can do, baby I can do it better
So I sit down and write her, not you, a love letter
By the time you come home, I’m long gone
And the way things went down is all wrong
That’s how I got caught up in this love jones

When we split, you said that I would regret it
But like a typical man, I tried to forget it
And now we’re in the midst of this 2 town 2 timing 2 step
Dying to run back to you but too scared to hurt my rep
I look around and see my friends in love and happy
Not long ago, I thought all this shit was sappy
But now I’m fiending for it
Feeling like a crack addict going cold turkey
And seeing you out with him truly hurts me
Now I’m wishing I could throw me back
To that exact spot where we found L-O-V-E at
Feel like all I do is lose now, when do I get to win one?
Asking the Holy Father how could he play his own son
Right now I’m left out in the rain; my own hands caused all this pain

I Am A Poet! (Parts 1-3)

This is not the piece(s) I was working on last night after I finished watching Love Jones. I’m still working on that. Hopefully, I can finish it some time today and post it for you guys to read. This is a series of poems I wrote last year in response to someone not believing that I was a poet because I “didn’t fit” their image of what a poet looked like. Needless to say, that completely pissed me off! Who decides what poet should or shouldn’t look like! So, I used that anger and this is what I came up with. I hope you enjoy…

(Part 1)
I am a poet!
I’m the last frontier for freedom of expression
I’m like the North Star, giving lost souls a sense of direction
I am a poet!
I’m not here to save your soul from your wicked ways
I just rhyme words and have your neurons firing for 3 days
I am a poet!
This ain’t a hobby, its more like a way of life
Without it, I’d fall on my own sword, take my own life
I am a poet!
Whoever said a poet couldn’t have tremendous swag
I walk around with comp notebooks inside my Gucci bag!

(Part 2)
I am a poet!
My weapon of choice is my mouth or a pen
Step up and I’ll bring your life to a swift end
I am a poet!
I don’t do this here for glory or fame
But to show the world that we’re not the same
I am a poet!
Your vocabulary can’t compare to my vernacular
Everyday, I thank God for a gift so spectacular
I am a poet!
A poet is what a poet does
I rhyme words and do it just because
I am a poet!

(Part 3)
I am a poet!
I’m the new age version of the old school storyteller
I paint pictures with a pen like Norman Mailer
I am a poet!
Lyrical expression is my life, you treat it like a hobby
That’s why my talent’s on the top floor, yours is in the lobby
I am a poet!
My spirit is a part of this, that’s why I get spiritual
But I get my hymns from Him, so it’s not me but He that’s lyrical
I’m not a miracle, I’m a Heaven sent instrument because
I am a poet!

On This Day…

On this day, four years ago, the world lost a great man. His death wasn’t mourned by millions of adoring fans because he wasn’t a celebrity. His untimely departure from this world wasn’t mentioned in the local newspaper because he wasn’t a public figure. Most of you have probably never heard of him. And very few those of you that have, definitely didn’t know him. If you haven’t figured it out yet, I’m talking about my father; Mr. Willis Jerry Coleman, or “Chief” as he was known to those closest to him. Today marks the beginning of the fourth year that I’m not able to see my father’s face whenever I want, hear his voice anytime I need someone to talk to or partake of his wisdom. And it still hurts.

For those of you that aren’t completely familiar with my relationship with my dad, let me see if I can put it into words for you. He was my protector and my provider. My best friend and at times, my worst enemy. He was inspiration. My loudest cheerleader and and my biggest detractor. He was both my hero and my villain. He was the source of my courage and the face of my fear. He was my measuring stick, my shining example of what a real man was and shouldn’t be. He was the best man I’ll ever have the pleasure of knowing.

So, here I am, a 30 year old man and still a scared little boy in need of his daddy. I find myself defiantly living my life because he’s not here to do the same. I’m still seeking his apporval in some way, shape or form. There are times I swear I can hear him talking to me, guiding me as he had my whole life. Those are moments that bring contradicting tears to my eyes. The mere mention of his name has been known to send me all over the emotional spectrum, from complete joy to utter dispair.

I haven’t been to his grave since he passed away, I just can’t bring myself to do it. Everybody thinks its because I’m selfish or I don’t care. That’s so far from the truth. I care too much, the pain of him leaving is still too fresh. I can’t bring myself to come to grips with the fact that a giant could die. If God could take my father, who was the strongest person I ever knew, what hope do I have of surviving? The obvious answer is none. But, here I am. Still fighting, still surviving, still trying to find my way in the world without my fearless leader. And while it gets a little easier everyday, I’m not sure I’ll ever be the person I was before. There’s a void in my life, a whole in my spirit, that I can’t seem to fill or close.

And what bothers me the most is that my children (whenever I have some) won’t have the honor of knowing this man that meant so much to me. They’ll never have the opportunity to sit in his lap or play with him. They won’t be able to listen to him rattle off stories of his days as a bullrider. They won’t be able to partake of his immense body of knowledge about a seemingly endless amount of subjects.

Below are 2 poems I’ve written about my father. I hope you enjoy them…

Little black boy, brand new in the world
Unaware of danger, his small body still curled
His eyes open wide, pretty and brown
Taking in his first view of all that’s around
His mom holds him gently, his dad promises to teach
And swears to the newborn he’ll always be within reach
This is how life should begin
Free from worry, untouched by sin

Same black boy, trying to find his way in the world
Amidst crime, temptation, his friends, drugs and girls
His eyes are still open, though weary and bloodshot
He sits back some days and dreams of being a robot
But he’s not, so he clears his mind by writing some rhymes
He’s good at it and it helps him deal with his issues at times
His mom’s gone and his dad’s health is kinda failing him
The young boy would do anything to have happy days again

Young black man, all alone in the world
Everyone is gone, from his dad to his girl
He tries to close his eyes to forget the pain he’s dealing with
Everyone tells him “Its okay” but he really isn’t feeling it
How can you lose your mentor and best friend
Yet not feel like your world has come to an end
But he pushes on and tries to stay strong
‘Cause in the end he knows they’ll meet again
The little black boy and his dad

This is the second poem…

To the left, to the left
I’m packing everything that was yours in this box to my left
Now that you’re gone, the going’s getting tough
And since I’m all alone, they don’t think I’m tough enough
Everyone keeps talking mess about me, that’s fine
They’re too dumb to walk and talk that shit at the same time
Since I spend most of my time looking real sad
All the fake well-wishers are praying that I do bad
Staring me right in my face, telling me I am such a fool
And that I’ll never ever be a man like you
These bitches got me twisted
Because what they don’t know ’bout me
Is that you’re the one who raised me
And that’s what helps me sing
“With the help of God, I can do anything”

To the right, to the right
Your nickname takes up space on my arm in plain sight
Looking at it helps me to go on
And I still hear your voice, even though you’ve been gone
That’s something I bet y’all didn’t know
The spirit of my father is with me everywhere I go
Since I spend most of my time looking real sad
All the fake well-wishers are praying that I do bad
Staring me right in my face, telling me I am such a fool
And that I’ll never ever be a man like you
These bitches got me twisted
What I want y’all to know ’bout me
Since you spend so much time discussing me
Is that I’m a prince mourning my king
And now that he’s gone, I gotta do my thing

My whole life, you were my everything
Without you, I would be nothing
That’s why I wrote this poem for you
I still shed some tears for you
Nowadays, I barely sleep
‘Cause the truth of the matter is
Moving on ain’t easy
To the left, to the left
I remember packing all your stuff in the box on my left
To the right, to the right
Your nickname takes up space on my arm in plain sight
So I don’t want you to ever think that you are replaceable

That’s all I have for today. I hope this serves a reminder to tell the people that matter most in your life how much you love them, because you never know when they’ll be called away. Now, I gotta go clean my face, I’ve been crying the whole time that I’ve been writing this. Peace and love…

Rest In Peace Chief. I love you…

I Sing the Body Electric by Walt Whitman

Greetings world, or at least the handful of people that take the time to read my ramblings. I hope this blog finds you in good health. Once again, I sincerely apologize for the gap between my entries. I’ve been dealing with quite a bit lately. That’s not an excuse, but it is the truth. On to new business. I’ve recently decided that I wanna share my poetry on a (slightly) grander scale than I currently occupy. But, in doing so, I ran into a bit of a conundrum. What to start with? Should I lead off with, what I feel is my best piece or should I post them in chronological order to show my progression as a writer? Should I just pick a piece at random or ask those closest to me (that have taken the time to read my poetry) for their input? All of that back and forth with myself gave me a bit of a headache! So I decided to lead off with someone else’s work, the great Walt Whitman. Enjoy…

I SING the Body electric;
The armies of those I love engirth me, and I engirth them;
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the Soul.

Was it doubted that those who corrupt their own bodies conceal themselves;
And if those who defile the living are as bad as they who defile the dead?
And if the body does not do as much as the Soul?
And if the body were not the Soul, what is the Soul?

The love of the Body of man or woman balks account—the body itself balks account;
That of the male is perfect, and that of the female is perfect.

The expression of the face balks account;
But the expression of a well-made man appears not only in his face;
It is in his limbs and joints also, it is curiously in the joints of his hips and wrists;

It is in his walk, the carriage of his neck, the flex of his waist and knees—dress does not hide him;
The strong, sweet, supple quality he has, strikes through the cotton and flannel;
To see him pass conveys as much as the best poem, perhaps more;
You linger to see his back, and the back of his neck and shoulder-side.

The sprawl and fulness of babes, the bosoms and heads of women, the folds of their dress,
their style as we pass in the street, the contour of their shape downwards,
The swimmer naked in the swimming-bath, seen as he swims through the transparent
green-shine, or lies with his face up, and rolls silently to and fro in the heave of the water,
The bending forward and backward of rowers in row-boats—the horseman in his saddle,
Girls, mothers, house-keepers, in all their performances,
The group of laborers seated at noon-time with their open dinner-kettles, and their wives waiting,
The female soothing a child—the farmer’s daughter in the garden or cow-yard,
The young fellow hoeing corn—the sleigh-driver guiding his six horses through the crowd,

The wrestle of wrestlers, two apprentice-boys, quite grown, lusty, good-natured,
native-born, out on the vacant lot at sundown, after work,
The coats and caps thrown down, the embrace of love and resistance,
The upper-hold and the under-hold, the hair rumpled over and blinding the eyes;
The march of firemen in their own costumes, the play of masculine muscle through clean-setting trowsers and waist-straps,
The slow return from the fire, the pause when the bell strikes suddenly again, and the listening on the alert,
The natural, perfect, varied attitudes—the bent head, the curv’d neck, and the counting;
Such-like I love—I loosen myself, pass freely, am at the mother’s breast with the little child,
Swim with the swimmers, wrestle with wrestlers, march in line with the firemen, and pause, listen, and count.

I know a man, a common farmer—the father of five sons;
And in them were the fathers of sons—and in them were the fathers of sons.

This man was of wonderful vigor, calmness, beauty of person;
The shape of his head, the pale yellow and white of his hair and beard, and the
immeasurable meaning of his black eyes—the richness and breadth of his manners,
These I used to go and visit him to see—he was wise also;
He was six feet tall, he was over eighty years old—his sons were massive, clean, bearded, tan-faced, handsome;
They and his daughters loved him—all who saw him loved him;
They did not love him by allowance—they loved him with personal love;
He drank water only—the blood show’d like scarlet through the clear-brown skin of his face;
He was a frequent gunner and fisher—he sail’d his boat himself—he had a fine one
presented to him by a ship-joiner—he had fowling-pieces, presented to him by men that loved him;
When he went with his five sons and many grand-sons to hunt or fish, you would pick him
out as the most beautiful and vigorous of the gang.

You would wish long and long to be with him—you would wish to sit by him in the boat,
that you and he might touch each other.

I have perceiv’d that to be with those I like is enough,
To stop in company with the rest at evening is enough,
To be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough,
To pass among them, or touch any one, or rest my arm ever so lightly round his or her neck for a moment—what is this, then?
I do not ask any more delight—I swim in it, as in a sea.

There is something in staying close to men and women, and looking on them, and in the contact and odor of them, that pleases the soul well;
All things please the soul—but these please the soul well.

This is the female form;
A divine nimbus exhales from it from head to foot;
It attracts with fierce undeniable attraction!
I am drawn by its breath as if I were no more than a helpless vapor—all falls aside but myself and it;
Books, art, religion, time, the visible and solid earth, the atmosphere and the clouds, and what was expected of heaven or fear’d of hell, are now consumed;
Mad filaments, ungovernable shoots play out of it—the response likewise ungovernable;
Hair, bosom, hips, bend of legs, negligent falling hands, all diffused—mine too diffused;
Ebb stung by the flow, and flow stung by the ebb—love-flesh swelling and deliciously aching;
Limitless limpid jets of love hot and enormous, quivering jelly of love, white-blow and delirious juice;
Bridegroom night of love, working surely and softly into the prostrate dawn;
Undulating into the willing and yielding day,
Lost in the cleave of the clasping and sweet-flesh’d day.

This is the nucleus—after the child is born of woman, the man is born of woman;
This is the bath of birth—this is the merge of small and large, and the outlet again.

Be not ashamed, women—your privilege encloses the rest, and is the exit of the rest;
You are the gates of the body, and you are the gates of the soul.

The female contains all qualities, and tempers them—she is in her place, and moves with perfect balance;
She is all things duly veil’d—she is both passive and active;
She is to conceive daughters as well as sons, and sons as well as daughters.

As I see my soul reflected in nature;
As I see through a mist, one with inexpressible completeness and beauty,
See the bent head, and arms folded over the breast—the female I see.

The male is not less the soul, nor more—he too is in his place;
He too is all qualities—he is action and power;
The flush of the known universe is in him;
Scorn becomes him well, and appetite and defiance become him well;
The wildest largest passions, bliss that is utmost, sorrow that is utmost, become him well—pride is for him;
The full-spread pride of man is calming and excellent to the soul;
Knowledge becomes him—he likes it always—he brings everything to the test of himself;
Whatever the survey, whatever the sea and the sail, he strikes soundings at last only here;
(Where else does he strike soundings, except here?)

The man’s body is sacred, and the woman’s body is sacred;
No matter who it is, it is sacred;
Is it a slave? Is it one of the dull-faced immigrants just landed on the wharf?
Each belongs here or anywhere, just as much as the well-off—just as much as you;
Each has his or her place in the procession.

(All is a procession; The universe is a procession, with measured and beautiful motion.)

Do you know so much yourself, that you call the slave or the dull-face ignorant?
Do you suppose you have a right to a good sight, and he or she has no right to a sight?
Do you think matter has cohered together from its diffuse float—and the soil is on the surface, and water runs, and vegetation sprouts,
For you only, and not for him and her?

A man’s Body at auction;
I help the auctioneer—the sloven does not half know his business.

Gentlemen, look on this wonder!
Whatever the bids of the bidders, they cannot be high enough for it;
For it the globe lay preparing quintillions of years, without one animal or plant;
For it the revolving cycles truly and steadily roll’d.

In this head the all-baffling brain;
In it and below it, the makings of heroes.

Examine these limbs, red, black, or white—they are so cunning in tendon and nerve;
They shall be stript, that you may see them.

Exquisite senses, life-lit eyes, pluck, volition,
Flakes of breast-muscle, pliant back-bone and neck, flesh not flabby, good-sized arms and legs,
And wonders within there yet.

Within there runs blood,
The same old blood!
The same red-running blood!
There swells and jets a heart—there all passions, desires, reachings, aspirations;
Do you think they are not there because they are not express’d in parlors and lecture-rooms?

This is not only one man—this is the father of those who shall be fathers in their turns;
In him the start of populous states and rich republics;
Of him countless immortal lives, with countless embodiments and enjoyments.

How do you know who shall come from the offspring of his offspring through the centuries?
Who might you find you have come from yourself, if you could trace back through the centuries?

A woman’s Body at auction!
She too is not only herself—she is the teeming mother of mothers;
She is the bearer of them that shall grow and be mates to the mothers.

Have you ever loved the Body of a woman?
Have you ever loved the Body of a man?
Your father—where is your father?
Your mother—is she living? have you been much with her? and has she been much with you?

—Do you not see that these are exactly the same to all, in all nations and times, all over the earth?

If any thing is sacred, the human body is sacred,
And the glory and sweet of a man, is the token of manhood untainted;
And in man or woman, a clean, strong, firm-fibred body, is beautiful as the most beautiful face.

Have you seen the fool that corrupted his own live body? or the fool that corrupted her own live body?
For they do not conceal themselves, and cannot conceal themselves.

O my Body! I dare not desert the likes of you in other men and women, nor the likes of the parts of you;
I believe the likes of you are to stand or fall with the likes of the Soul, (and that they are the Soul;)
I believe the likes of you shall stand or fall with my poems—and that they are poems,
Man’s, woman’s, child’s, youth’s, wife’s, husband’s, mother’s, father’s, young man’s, young woman’s poems;
Head, neck, hair, ears, drop and tympan of the ears,
Eyes, eye-fringes, iris of the eye, eye-brows, and the waking or sleeping of the lids,
Mouth, tongue, lips, teeth, roof of the mouth, jaws, and the jaw-hinges,
Nose, nostrils of the nose, and the partition,
Cheeks, temples, forehead, chin, throat, back of the neck, neck-slue,
Strong shoulders, manly beard, scapula, hind-shoulders, and the ample side-round of the chest.

Upper-arm, arm-pit, elbow-socket, lower-arm, arm-sinews, arm-bones,
Wrist and wrist-joints, hand, palm, knuckles, thumb, fore-finger, finger-balls, finger-joints, finger-nails,
Broad breast-front, curling hair of the breast, breast-bone, breast-side,
Ribs, belly, back-bone, joints of the back-bone,
Hips, hip-sockets, hip-strength, inward and outward round, man-balls, man-root,
Strong set of thighs, well carrying the trunk above,
Leg-fibres, knee, knee-pan, upper-leg, under leg,
Ankles, instep, foot-ball, toes, toe-joints, the heel;
All attitudes, all the shapeliness, all the belongings of my or your body, or of any one’s body, male or female,
The lung-sponges, the stomach-sac, the bowels sweet and clean,
The brain in its folds inside the skull-frame,
Sympathies, heart-valves, palate-valves, sexuality, maternity,
Womanhood, and all that is a woman—and the man that comes from woman,
The womb, the teats, nipples, breast-milk, tears, laughter, weeping, love-looks, love-perturbations and risings,
The voice, articulation, language, whispering, shouting aloud,
Food, drink, pulse, digestion, sweat, sleep, walking, swimming,
Poise on the hips, leaping, reclining, embracing, arm-curving and tightening,
The continual changes of the flex of the mouth, and around the eyes,
The skin, the sun-burnt shade, freckles, hair,
The curious sympathy one feels, when feeling with the hand the naked meat of the body,
The circling rivers, the breath, and breathing it in and out,
The beauty of the waist, and thence of the hips, and thence downward toward the knees,
The thin red jellies within you, or within me—the bones, and the marrow in the bones,
The exquisite realization of health;
O I say, these are not the parts and poems of the Body only, but of the Soul,
O I say now these are the Soul!

The Revolution Has Been Synthesized

Two in one day! What can I say? I’m on a bit of a roll! Honestly though, since I couldn’t think of a topic to write about, I’d figured I would go ahead and start sharing my poetry. As I said in my last piece, I wasn’t exactly sure where to start when it comes to my writings. My topics are all over the map. Should I start with a sappy love poem? Maybe something political? Or how about something that is intimate and personal to showcase those things that my friends swear I don’t have. What are they called again? Oh yeah, emotions. So after hours upon hours of deliberation (actually it was only a few minutes. I set this entry to post a few hours after I actually finished it.), I have decided on a poem to lead off with!

Here’s a little background on what you’re about to read…

It was orginially written during the 2008 Presidential election. As I watched the charismatic Senator from Illinois run around the country (and sometimes the world) and capture the hearts of millions, I couldn’t help but think that his existence in the public eye was nothing more than an attempt to pacify the masses of unhappy American citizens that had grown weary with the status quo. Here was a man, barely 20 years my senior with no real prior executive experience, running for the highest office in the land! What made it worse was it seemed like he was running almost unopposed. Hilary Clinton was a minor roadblock for all of the political equivalent of 15 seconds. Then he faced off against The Mummy with Midget Arms (John McCain) and Moose-Hunting Barbie aka Tina Fey, I mean Sarah Palin. I think. We’re still waiting for verification that that wasn’t a big joke being played on us by Ms. Fey and Lorne Michaels. So naturally, I was hesitant to believe that we were on the precipice of having our nation’s first black President since Bill clinton. Oh yeah, that’s right! He’s not really black, he just had negro tendencies. But I digress. Like any jaded, synical, secretly optimistic writer, I sat down and expressed my feelings about the situation on paper. Actually, it was a computer screen, but you know what I mean. So without further adieu, here you go…

Wonder why you were able to stay at home brother
Wonder why you were able to plug in, turn on and zone out
Wonder why you were able to lose yourself in the HD graphics
And to fast forward past beer commercials
Because the revolution has been synthesized

The revolution has been synthesized

The revolution was brought to you in part by HP
Over 5 nights with limited commercial interruption
The revolution was captured in pictures of Jesse Jackson
Blowing a bugle and leading the charge for equality
By Al Sharpton and Barack Obama feasting
On the hopes and dreams of Black America

The revolution has been synthesized

The revolution has been scientifically created and lab tested
Our progression was falsified, our development has been arrested
The revolution was produced in a studio in front of a live audience
Edited for content and to run in the allotted time
The revolution has been rated PG-13 to allow the children to see
So they can share the experience via Facebook and Twitter
There will be no really historic changes made
No equality gained or rights won
The marches we witnessed were just lines to see the revolution in 3D
But for those that couldn’t make it, the revolution was made for TV

The revolution has been synthesized

Today’s Reflection – 7/27/11

Good morning world! It is another beautiful day in Zamunda! Birds are chirping, the sun is shining, but my bottom lip is hanging down to the floor. Now I know you’re all wondering why. Well, the reasons follow…

First, today is the 4 th anniversary of the day I checked my father into the hospital. I know what you’re thinking, “Why is that important?” Well, on this day 4 years ago, I sat in the parking lot of the hospital and knew my father would never walk back out. It bothers the hell out of me that my intuition on that day was so spot on. My father’s death was, by far, the worst thing to happen to me in 27 years of living. And while I’m not the emotional trainwreck I was immediately after he passed, I am still subject to random bouts of depression because of it. They say mourning is a process, but they didn’t say it would be like this.

Second, I’ve had a lot of time lately to reflect on my life. And while I’m not doing anywhere near as poorly as I could be, I’m definitely not where I wanna be. That bothers me. Its not like I expected my life to be extra glamorous, but I didn’t expect it to be so unbelievably craptastic (in my eyes). I know I’m still reasonably young so I still have time to achieve the life I envision, but it seems a little bit out of my reach at the time.

Third, I’m facing a situation in my life that I am somewhat unprepared for. I’ve prided myself on the fact that up until this point in my life, I’ve never been in any real trouble with the law. But now, through a bunch of random acts of fuckery, that streak has come to an end. If I was a lesser man, I would probably be standing on somebody’s ledge right now. Let’s hope that my exceptional nature will help me through the minefield ahead.

Peace and love…

Today’s Reflection – 7/11/11

Its almost been 3 months since I last posted in this blog. Wow! For those of you that take the time to read my incessant ramblings, I’m sorry! I don’t have a good excuse for my prolonged absence, the only thing I can say in my defense is that my life is really hectic right now for some reason that is unknown to me. Usually, I would promise to do better, but I haven’t kept that promise yet so I’m not gonna make it again. I will say that I’m hoping to get my life to a point that I have time to do all the things I want to do. On to what brings me here today…

I’m noticing a decline in my ability to sit down and write. Not to say that the unthinkable has happened and I’ve lost my talent, it feels like I never have time to do it. And when I do try to devote time to writing, I’m never able to get in the proper mindframe to do it. To put it plainly, life has gotten in the way. When I was unemployed, I could write all day. There were times when I forced myself to not write, purely because I was in such a dark place in my life and I didn’t want to see my mind’s interpretation of it in black & white. All I wanted was a job, any job so I didn’t have to spend so much time dealing with my own demons. Now, I have a job but I can’t write anything to save my life. All I want now is time to sit down and express myself lyrically. While I would love to believe that this struggle is mine and mine alone, its not. I’m blessed to have coworkers that are experiencing similar problems when it comes to their own creative process. I guess we all need a vacation…

New Ink!

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Good morning beautiful people! Sorry its been a while. Normally, I would lie and say I’ve been busy but I won’t do that today. I have been absent-minded when it comes to this blog. I’m truly sorry for that. But enough of my rambling apology, let’s get on with today’s topic…

I (finally) got my newest tattoo yesterday. If you can’t really tell what it is from the picture, let me help you: its a figure that is half angel and half demon. This image originally appeared in the movie Angels & Demons as a statue. The first time I saw the movie, I knew I had to get a tattoo of that statue! Not because the movie was so incredible or the message they were trying to convey was so powerful, simply because that statue represents the true nature of every person in the world. We’re all comprised of a good side (angel) and a bad side (demon). And while most people vehemently dispute the concept of duality, I embrace it. I know there are times when I can be the sweetest person that you know. But I also know that I can be the biggest asshole on the face of the planet. I’m not trying to say that its a good thing to be that way, but its who I am. Its part of my personality. I know what some of you are thinking, “He must be a Gemini.” Let me clear that up right now; I’m not. What I am is a human being who’s mood and attitude towards the world is subject to change at any given moment. But maybe the fact that I’ve not only accepted but embraced the split in my personality is what makes me so exceptional. Just a thought…